Sometimes I wonder what my hockey career is worth. Blood, sweat, and tears, sure. But losing Ash? I can't. I shouldn't ask this of her. To ignore the rumors. To let go of the scandal. To accept the spotlight. To give up her dreams so I can chase mine. Balancing it all, though? Well, that's a different sort of torture. I have no idea how long I can hold on without my past catching up to us. AND when it does? Well, Ash deserves better than a screw up like me.--
