Ruckus (Sinners of Saint #2) by L. J. Shen

They say that life is a beautiful lie and death a painful truth. They're right. No one has ever made me feel more alive than the guy who serves as a constant reminder that my clock is ticking. He is my forbidden, shiny apple. The striking fallacy to my blunt, raw, truth. He is also my sister's ex-boyfriend. One thing you should know before you judge me; I saw him first. I craved him first. I loved him first. Eleven years later, he waltzes into my life, demanding a second chance. Dean Cole wants to be my bronze horseman.But my clock is ticking. See, I'm not like the rest. I have an illness.Sometimes I conquer it.Sometimes it conquers me. My white knight has finally arrived. Hopefully, he isn't too late.